why i hired a provider

I enjoy deep, intimate connections.

New experiences excite me.

Stepping into the unknown with a new lover is thrilling, especially when we have chemistry and I’ve been allowed to steep in anticipation.

So, if you were to ask me why I hired a provider?

The answer is simple: my pleasure!

My very first time researching providers to hire, I began my search by looking up providers in a city I was traveling to for work.

I read through some ads, followed a few of the providers on Twitter and got curious . . . Two of them happened to message me on Twitter once I followed them, we began talking, and one of them is actually now a friend of mine!

I didn’t end up hiring a provider in this scenario, but my curiosity did not stop.

Back at the end of 2021, I connected with a handsome content creator on Instagram (Yes, I meet everyone on social media and dating apps!). I find his work to be creative, innovative and smoking hot! 

We continued chatting and had discussed shooting content together yet, we never got around to being in the same place at the same time. We have stayed in touch, though!

A month or so ago, while contemplating the initial proposal of content creation, I decided I desired to go another avenue with our connection:

I desired to hire him as a provider.

I don’t feel as called to step into porn at this stage of my career. But, I do want to have a new experience with a sexy babe!

We got on the phone to discuss our boundaries and desires. Words stumbled out of my mouth, my hands were clammy and my brain felt devoid of thought. I told him how nervous I was and he was so sweet to me. Now I know how some of my clients feel talking with me!

We agreed on a date, time and place — I decided on a 4-hour date with him making me dinner.

To say I’m excited is an understatement! I am jubilant, nervous, horny, hungry, and absolutely star struck . . .

I paid my 50% deposit (his rates are higher than mine, swoon!) and said, “See you in 3 months!” 

Now, I wait. Oh, how I love the anticipation . . .

Stay tuned for part two as I share more about this tantalizing journey!