The “more” about sex.
While I have many passions in life, creating erotic experiences for myself and others is one of my favorite things. If you follow me in my exhibitionist delights on OnlyFans, you know what I mean. Beyond simply fulfilling carnal desires, I’m drawn to what’s “more” in sex. What do I mean by “more” exactly? Let me share a story with you . . .
Many moons ago, I had just moved back to the US from Costa Rica. My 3 year relationship had ended and I felt numb and disconnected from my body. Though I still craved intimacy, nothing sounded appealing. My go-to’s for self-pleasure weren’t working and I felt lost. Beyond that, I was convinced there was no one datable in Oklahoma. So, I had myself questioning, who was I without sex?
After tossing around in despair for a while — I do love to wallow sometimes — I hired a sex coach. Through 3 months of work together, in the back bedroom at my mom’s house, I had my sexual awakening. And hot damn! I was having the best sex of my life with just myself!
Learning how to play my body like the finely tuned Stradivarius that she is, I uncovered pleasure like I’d never known before. Electricity through my skin, breaking open the very fabric of my being, creative visions, all the orgasms: Eye-gasms, heart-gasms, fruit-gasms, full-body, pineal gland, big toe-gasms!
I also learned how to use my voice. To say what I liked, what I wanted and how to do it. When I started dating after a year, it was a whole different ballgame! I didn’t need anybody else for sex because I was already having the best sex of my life. I was just curious about the people coming into my sphere and how we could play together. Could I be fully myself and allow my heart to open again? This continues to be my pursuit!
For me, the “more” to sex is the combination of ecstatic pleasure, healing, co-creation and soulful expression. Getting creative with our experiences, playing outside of the box, releasing expectations of our bodies and delighting with what’s right in front of us! Sex is one of the magical ways we get to play as adults. And, if you’re open to it, you might just find some treasures within.
